He Rocked My World!!!

It's not what you think! No really!

First, I want to mention how amazing it was to take a walk with my children (and my eldest daughter's BFF) today. I was DYING for a Dunkin Donuts Iced Pumpkin Spice latte and the closest Dunkins is about a mile and a half from our home. It's a stone's throw while driving but walking with 5 children is a bit harder. :-p

That three miles made me feel A-mazing! I used to walk there and back nearly every night. I know that compared to some, a three mile walk is nothing but I have great metabolism when I'm not sitting on my ass playing video games and e-blogging. True story. 

Unfortunately, my husband - who is very eager to please - fed me everything I asked for while pregnant with our youngest, Juliet. Needless to say I got waaay our of shape! OK, maybe not "waaay" to most people, but for miss size 5 over here, I felt like a giant air balloon or what I liked to affectionately call myself...baby beluga. And yes, I even sang the song by the Wiggles. If you don't know it, look it up on youtube and I promise...you will laugh - maybe until you pee - I guess it depends on your sense of humour.

So, the walk was phenomenal and I feel like a million bucks! That's not the amazing thing that happened today. A few of you are going to say "big friggin deal" but it's huge to me. You see, as a teenager I was a miserable, depressed, people hating entity that wanted to drown herself in rock music (Nirvana, AIC, Pearl Jam...etc) and draw depressing pictures of people crying whilst huddled in a corner. Yeah, I was a ray of fucking sunshine, let me tell you. But as I got older, I started to change. I had children, met a great guy...yeah, kinda in that order...then had another awesome baby who made my life that much brighter. I'm always positive now - to the point where people want to strangle me - and I have restored my hope in humanity.

Now, all of that being said, I have had a NASTY experience with some people who own a couple of dog rescues lately. I mean, to the point where I think it may be a bad idea for people to adopt. Now, anyone who knows me knows that I am an avid animal lover and support/donate to no-kill shelters/rescues and these people even had me questioning. That is a very, very difficult thing to accomplish! Anyway, I was losing my faith in people - I have more confidence of the good in people than most - I was losing that! After meeting these ass monkeys who call themselves "angels" for these dogs! 

Today, while walking back from our local Dunkins, a man was walking just about our pace carrying a shopping bag. He threw something in the rubbish that didn't quite make it so he walked back and made sure that it stayed. I thought "Wow, that's nice. Most people don't do that."  We all kept walking and he was still walking about our pace when we came upon a woman coming out of a store. She dropped her receipt on the ground and the man politely said "Excuse me, you dropped your receipt. It blew that way." She looked at him funny but said thank you and kept going, without picking up her paper. We walked on, up a hill that ran parallel with the parking area...and I just happened to look down as the woman was getting out of her car and picking up her piece of paper.  She got into her car and started to drive away but then thought better of it and went across the parking area just to pick up her paper.


Seem ridiculous that I would write a blog about this? Perhaps you're right and I'm really just a silly woman but I like to think that man changed her mind. He made a difference in that one person and somehow changed her mind without being intrusive or pushy. He was polite and sweet and she did the right thing. It means a lot to this silly blogger because I had just started to think to myself "what the HELL is wrong with people" and I began to lose the hope I had that - for the most part - people are good and do the right thing! He rocked my damn world!! I wanted to catch up with him and thank him but I had two giggling 8 year olds straggling behind and he got too far ahead. So, this is my way of thanking him...by writing a blog to show the world that there is hope and by just saying the smallest thing or making the tiniest gesture, you make a difference!!

And I don't even need a damn coffee, I already had one and this guy has me pumped on renewed hope!

Day 2 - Peace?

First let me start by saying hello and thank you for reading my blog, if in fact you are reading this. If you're not, it's like a tree falling in the forest, I suppose. ;-)


Now for my silly, incessant rants...



I know so many kinds of different people. I know Taoists, Buddhists, Pagans, Wiccans, Christians, Catholics and a few others but I must say that the Spiritual (rather than religious) people are undoubtedly the nicest and most accepting of the lot. 

I try to put a lot of trust in the fact that people will be good and kind instead of judgemental, self righteous assholes. BOY, was that theory blown out of the water today! I won't go into details but I will say that religious people (not all) are frightening beings.  It just leaves me in utter consternation when certain people preach the bible as though it has been burned into the folds of their brain matter and yet...they're pompous, pedantic asses! Why is this? Can anyone tell me?

It's going to be a short blog today but I am just completely confused at human behaviour today and it is most assuredly clouding my thoughts and ability to write anything more useful at this time. 

People! Ugh! <---I usually hate the term..."ugh" but in this case..it is all I can muster in terms of emotion.


Coffee time..!

Day 1 - Boredom

Ah, boredom.

This may be the prime opportunity to attempt getting comfortable with this electronic emotion dumping ground. (glamorous eh?) It perplexes me how I have so much to say in person yet I can think of nothing interesting to write down here. Endless opportunity to write, feel, think, be infinitely opinionated and yet...little comes to mind. 

Perhaps my life is proving to be very dull? I'm a wife, a mother, an aspiring actress. I hoped to be further in my career by this age but we're all waiting for that big break, I suppose. 
It drives me nuts to see certain "celebrities" (as one successful actor and I once discussed - celebrity is quite different from actor/actress as the latter establishes themselves in a legitimate way) whom take their status and success for granted. I see celebs throwing their money away on drugs, alcohol and 20 bedroom mansions for which they have little need. I never understood this way of life. I have family and friends who need help and there are plenty of other causes, exempli gratia (yeah, I said it), children with cancer, endangered species, starving people, gay rights and plenty of Environmental issues that need tending to before 20 room mansions and drug induced comas outside of Hollywood clubs. 

So I suppose this is more a rant than a "memory dump" today but it is also a vow. It is a vow that if ever I "make the big time" that I will be sure to tend to my family, friends and other issues first and foremost. You shall never find me passed out in a bush - sans pants - outside of a Hollywood club, I will ALWAYS wear panties so as to avoid photos in the Enquirer of me exiting a car and I will never go to jail (for 2-5 days) because I drunkenly killed someone while driving under the influence of alcohol. 

You can quote me on that!

Now, I need coffee!

Wow...OK

Well...where to start. This is my very first, official blog! I started this mainly because I wanted to be in touch with the Back To Frank Black campaign but I guess it has turned into a personal thing!
Tonight, I'm very excited to have become involved in something wonderful and - to me - very big!! I'm not at liberty to give all of the details but needless to say, I'm excited. Excited enough to start a freakin' blog. So...there it is!

This will either turn into something that will be a sporadic fascination for me or a very regular "unloading" of my thoughts, past experiences and future hopes and dreams! 

Onward and upward!